Broken

When I woke up in Molyullah this morning, I woke up with a groan and knew that this was going to be one of those days when I would be dealing with tears and grief and missing Dave.  It wasn't just because I was leaving my friends at Molyullah because I knew I would be back. It was because I had thoughts....
Thoughts of: 

• Missing Dave
• No job and not having heard anything either way, 
• Missing Dave
• Having a car but no home to drive it to
• Leaving friends to visit other friends but not having my own home
• Missing Dave
• Wishing I could wake up with Dave beside me.

"Revisiting" one of my favourite memories: On our wedding night, we went to the Davenport Hotel and the lady at the reception desk noticed Dave's very shiny, wedding ring and asked if we were just married after we had just said we'd been to a wedding that day.  Up in our room, my hair was full of hairspray and pins and it was frustrating me to pull out the pins when I couldn't see where they were all hidden.  I laid my head on Dave's chest and he gently took them all out without pulling my hair at all.  Ahhh! So nice!


Anyway, as I was driving along, I listened to a Mariah Carey CD but it was too much of the "I can't live if living is without you" type songs so I played Sandi Patty's CD "Edge of the Divine".  When I heard the song, "When Life Gets Broken", I could not stop the tears but I needed to hear the words to that song!


When Life Gets Broken
Hands reaching out 
No one to hold 
You've been abandoned 
With no place to go 
Wounded and wanting 
Such desperate times 
Cold bitter tears are filling your eyes 

(Pre-Chorus) 
Get a glimpse of Jesus 
For He is right there with you 
He knows just what you need 

Chorus 
When life gets broken 
And you're in despair 
He'll carry your burden 
When it's too much to bear 
It's down in the valley 
Where He'll give you strength 
And there is nothing you have lost 
That He can't replace 
He'll help you start all over again 
When life gets broken 

Verse 2 
You hoped God would heal her 
But she went home anyway 
Now it's hard to imagine 
How you'll make it through the day 
Weeks turn to years 
Time's passing you by 
But you're still holding on 
To the how's and the why's 

(Pre-Chorus) 
Get a glimpse of Jesus 
For He is right there with you 
He knows just what you need 

Chorus 
When life gets broken 
And you're in despair 
He'll carry your burden 
When it's too much to bear 
It's down in the valley 
Where He'll give you strength 
And there is nothing you have lost 
That He can't replace 
He'll help you start all over again 
When life gets broken 


So tonight I am visiting friends I haven't seen in years but have been friends with for years.  I accidently left my toiletries at Molyullah so Carolyn and I had to go shopping for some more.  I am so blessed in the generosity and loving kindness of all my friends.  I am so thankful for them but... I still wish I had my own home to go to!